I keep my watch on overnight for many reasons, but the most important right now is what time is it really?? It’s dark in the morning. It’s dark, dark. This morning I’d wake up, check and then doze. And then all of a sudden, it was 6;30am. Ugh.

I have to talk myself into getting out of bed. I’d rather ignore the pain of getting out of bed as long as possible. I’m realizing, especially today, that this is not a schedule I can keep. I need to get out of bed on the same schedule every day. I need to have morning time to pray and THEN be in the Bible.

What I noticed today, i couldn’t focus on reading the Bible. I couldn’t soak what I was learning. My mind was distracted, my mind focused on pain, and I read so much and gleaned nothing.

This gets me back to getting up at the same time every morning and starting my day with prayer. Not just thought prayers as I begin reading, but time to worship, confess, acknowledge He is God and I am not. Time to lift up people and situations. Time to lift up my own requests. Time to ask the Lord to use me in this day.

Does God speak to me in just time in the word? Yes, but I kind of think of prayer BEFORE study like warming up before a run or walk. I am positioning myself to hear. To focus. To not spend my time answering texts, looking at the news, etc. my first priority is quiet time in prayer.

So, maybe the best thing is to start over. Remember this morning and chose an alternate path tomorrow.