We have the threat of inclement weather today. So last night, I received warnings from Alexa, WGN weather, and the school started emailing and robot calling. They canceled school today. As I stare out at no snow, I do tend to wonder at the quick draw of our school administration.
I’ll be honest. I’m not a whole lot different in my approach to my life. I have issues and complications in my life and God isn’t answering in the timeline with which I am comfortable, so I devise my own strategy and plan. Wait on the Lord, it’s so hard to do, especially when I just want the system to get the Lord to answer me. Do I trust in the sovereignty of God in my life? Am i willing to wait?
All I have to do is remember when Sarai schemed to have a child, circumventing God’s plan and devising her own (Genesis 11). Or Peter, sure of his reaction to denying Jesus, plot twist, Jesus knew his heart and his fears (Matthew 26). Or Aaron waiting for Moses to get off that mountain, threw together a golden calf for the people of God to worship (Exodus 32). Even in my own life, I have jumped ahead of God’s plan. I have fretted and worried.
I think of Hezekiah laying the letter before the throne of God, crying out for answers (2 Kings 19). I think of Elijah crying out to God to bring the fire, then running, never too far from God. God brought him food and he brought him rest (1 Kings 18).
““Keep asking, and it will be given to you. Keep searching, and you will find. Keep knocking, and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and the one who searches finds, and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened. What man among you, if his son asks him for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good things to those who ask Him! Therefore, whatever you want others to do for you, do also the same for them — this is the Law and the Prophets.”
Matthew 7:7-12 HCSB
https://bible.com/bible/72/mat.7.7-12.HCSB
Listen, this isn’t a formula to get what i want from God. The causal relationship is in my head. If I do this, then God will be pleased and answer my requests. He is after the position of my heart. I’m confident of this. If you could see me now, I flailing my hands and trying to describe sovereignty to my heart. So, rather than bring God down to my size and description, maybe I need to look at the position of my heart.
I think of these next verses from John 2.
“While He was in Jerusalem at the Passover Festival, many trusted in His name when they saw the signs He was doing. Jesus, however, would not entrust Himself to them, since He knew them all and because He did not need anyone to testify about man; for He Himself knew what was in man.”
John 2:23-25 HCSB
https://bible.com/bible/72/jhn.2.23-25.HCSB
Jesus knows our hearts and he loves us. he loves us right here. We know our hearts towards our loved ones, we know that if our family members would ask, we would not deny them food. We just won’t. When we ask our Father, his answer will come. I ask the Spirit to help me trust. Help me wait faithfully.
This does seem to circle back to yesterday’s post of the position of my heart. Not judging. Not looking down my nose and deciding. Hands out. Asking the Lord to keep me humble. Asking the Lord to hear my cries.
He does. He knows what is in me, and there is a plan. So, I ask to help me in my unbelief. Help me trust in what I do not see, let God move.
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