Climbing out

I’m sitting here gazing at my dog, actually at her paw. Thinking about all the walks that we have taken. I have a pedometer app that I purchased in October of 2019 that tells me I have taken 10,454,392 steps since then. 4,850 miles. Note exactly sure how much of that was with Star, but I’m sure much of it was. I take her for short walks now. When she is done, she lays down in the shade and looks at me with the beautiful eyes.

I’ve been going at a good clip with writing, but i had a few things collide at once. New Bible study on worry. Not sleeping well. And pain has been plaguing me. So, I’ve been writing and thinking through how best to manage my time.

Here’s where I am right now. I’ve given into some fears. And it’s time to climb out.

For some reason, Proverbs 31:25 has been on my mind…”..she smiles at the future.” And I will be honest, as I have been with my Jesus. I haven’t spent a lot of time smiling at that. Rather, I have cried. Things I have long wondered, the pages are turning. Do you see my error? God has kindly been revealing that to me today.

“Because of the surpassing greatness and extraordinary nature of the revelations [which I received from God], for this reason, to keep me from thinking of myself as important, a thorn in the flesh was given to me, a messenger of Satan, to torment and harass me—to keep me from exalting myself! Concerning this I pleaded with the Lord three times that it might leave me; but He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you [My lovingkindness and My mercy are more than enough—always available—regardless of the situation]; for [My] power is being perfected [and is completed and shows itself most effectively] in [your] weakness.” Therefore, I will all the more gladly boast in my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ [may completely enfold me and] may dwell in me. So I am well pleased with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, and with difficulties, for the sake of Christ; for when I am weak [in human strength], then I am strong [truly able, truly powerful, truly drawing from God’s strength].”
‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭12‬:‭7‬-‭10‬ ‭AMP‬‬
https://bible.com/bible/1588/2co.12.7-10.AMP

When I get afraid, I know what I am doing. I am looking at things that have not happened. I am imagining what could happen. I am wondering and fearing the worst. Everywhere I look in my life right now, I can do this. And, I have to say that I am fighting truth in my life. I am allowing my mind to wander in places alone. But, when I focus my mind, stop the express train to crash in worrysville, I turn myself towards:

So, today, that is my prayer. Lord, help me face the areas that are needing my attention today. And please, Father, give me wisdom to know the train tracks that lead to fear and worry and futures unknown.

“Therefore, since [these His] children share in flesh and blood [the physical nature of mankind], He Himself in a similar manner also shared in the same [physical nature, but without sin], so that through [experiencing] death He might make powerless (ineffective, impotent) him who had the power of death—that is, the devil— and [that He] might free all those who through [the haunting] fear of death were held in slavery throughout their lives.”
‭‭Hebrews‬ ‭2‬:‭14‬-‭15‬ ‭AMP‬‬
https://bible.com/bible/1588/heb.2.14-15.AMP

Christ did this for me, and for you. He has done this. I am free. i want to stop putting the chains back on my wrists and ankles and step into the freedom bought by the blood of Jesus today.