Little faith

It’s very easy for me to assess my life and look at the areas that have not been healed or answered and think these questions.

Where are you, God? Why didn’t you answer in the way I thought you should? When will there be a breakthrough here? This is in the middle of the night or in the middle of chaos. Neither place is a good place to have these kind of discussions.

When I am awake and processing (like I am right now), I can see (with my Bible open) that this is not the conversation God is having with me.

I know where Jesus is. He’s told me in his word.

““Do not let your heart be troubled (afraid, cowardly). Believe [confidently] in God and trust in Him, [have faith, hold on to it, rely on it, keep going and] believe also in Me. In My Father’s house are many dwelling places. If it were not so, I would have told you, because I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back again and I will take you to Myself, so that where I am you may be also. And [to the place] where I am going, you know the way.” Thomas said to Him, “Lord, we do not know where You are going; so how can we know the way?” Jesus said to him, “I am the [only] Way [to God] and the [real] Truth and the [real] Life; no one comes to the Father but through Me.”
‭‭John‬ ‭14‬:‭1‬-‭6‬ ‭AMP‬‬
https://bible.com/bible/1588/jhn.14.1-6.AMP

We have been given the Spirit.

““But when the Helper (Comforter, Advocate, Intercessor—Counselor, Strengthener, Standby) comes, whom I will send to you from the Father, that is the Spirit of Truth who comes from the Father, He will testify and bear witness about Me. But you will testify also and be My witnesses, because you have been with Me from the beginning.”
‭‭John‬ ‭15‬:‭26‬-‭27‬ ‭AMP‬‬
https://bible.com/bible/1588/jhn.15.26-27.AMP

I have the Spirit of God. Look at all those names of the Spirit. Helper, comforter, advocate, Intercessor-counselor, strengthened, standby. I don’t have to ask, where are you? I know. He’s with me right now.

The underlying question here has to be, why aren’t you Santa Claus? When I ask, you answer. Poof, what do you need? I just don’t like to admit this. When I, instead, understand, that God understands far more than I ever will about my present day situations, I have two options. trust or despair. I publicly declare, help me in my unbelief!

I also take comfort in the fact that the disciples had jesus daily in their presence and they still misunderstood. They still had fears. They still tried to jockey for position. Part of this whole question is pride. I think I know best. (Pardon me whilst the Spirit laughs heartily.)

In the passage today, I realize that I can truly be like a Pharisee. I can question God, which is okay, but I can stay in these questions. And not fully believe. When i see answers to prayer, it’s easy to trust. When I am in the waiting, I’m spinning trying to figure out my own answer. The Pharisees could not allow themselves to trust Jesus and who he claimed to be. No matter the healings, no matter lives changed, no matter all the signs and wonders.

I can’t just trust God in the answered prayers. I need to trust his answer of not yet. Or quite frankly, no. I don’t need to run around trying to figure out an answer to “help God.” Let’s go back to the list of who is the Spirit.

The passage today begins with Jesus healing a demon possessed man. We begin with the Pharisees.

“But the Pharisees heard it and said, “This man casts out demons only by [the help of] Beelzebul (Satan) the prince of the demons.” Knowing their thoughts Jesus said to them, “Any kingdom that is divided against itself is being laid waste; and no city or house divided against itself will [continue to] stand. If Satan casts out Satan [that is, his demons], he has become divided against himself and disunited; how then will his kingdom stand? If I cast out the demons by [the help of] Beelzebul (Satan), by whom do your sons drive them out? For this reason they will be your judges. But if it is by the Spirit of God that I cast out the demons, then the kingdom of God has come upon you [before you expected it]. Or how can anyone go into a strong man’s house and steal his property unless he first overpowers and ties up the strong man? Then he will ransack and rob his house.”
‭‭Matthew‬ ‭12‬:‭24‬-‭29‬ ‭AMP‬‬
https://bible.com/bible/1588/mat.12.24-29.AMP

Oh how they wanted to put Jesus in a box. Yikes. quite literally. But also figuratively, okay, you know what? Jesus is possessed. That’s a good explanation. And Jesus HEARD. THEIR. THOUGHTS. Let’s just stop right there. Well, I suppose they could say that was demonic influence, but honestly, think about this, he heard their thoughts. Like us, how often are we grateful nobody can hear our thoughts?

And then Jesus asks questions that the Pharisees can’t or won’t answer. The same applies true for us (I’m assuming that I am not the only one with questions..)

If I (Jesus) were really sent from the devil, why in the world would I be driving demons out? Wouldn’t I(Jesus) be driving them in? “If I drive out demons by the Spirit, then the kingdom of God has come upon you.”

So I finish today with this knowledge. God knows my heart, my cares, my questions and he loves me. Same goes for you. Our hearts are continually in process. We are in process. Jesus is greater than the evil one, greater than our fears.